Life Changing!

It has been a long long time I din't update for my blog, well almost become a ghost blogger =P By the way, just a simply share here. I had gone through the difficulty in my life and it gives me a lot of experience. I had growth up but sometime I still like a little child who needs a lot of loves and cares. But, I know what should and shouldn't do in my future. I had already found my way and I am on the right track this time.

Here, flash back to the past memory, i regret for my stupidity. There was what human always do, chose a wrong way to go and yet end up with a regretful feeling. Then they started to think, "Why am I so stupid? It was a wrong way but i still continue." Yes, human always like that including me...
The passes me was a negative person, i lives without confident because i though i am ugly compare to others. Since i was young, everyone is pointed at me and saying that i am fat and ugly. It hurts me a lot and it affected my personality when i was in the process of growing up. Well...it all were pass tense, now God had changed me. I lay my life down at God's feet, apologize with all my sincerity and asked for his forgiveness. In Jesus name, I pray that all my sins washed away and he gives me brand new life. He will guide me and be my light and lead me all my future days.

Thus, we need God, he can save us, he can make us clear on what we are doing, he teach us what is wrong what is right just because he loves us.

My life was changed. A brand new life! =)

不明白的恐惧

不明白  怎么想都还是不明白
心里有好多的问号和为什么
难道这个世界要遇上一个可以依靠的人真的那么难吗？
还是说自己太笨  太过容易相信别人？

终究还是找不到答案
所谓  解铃还须系铃人
但  那个系铃人自己却也解不开

为什么这个世界变得那么恐怖  那么没有安全感
我到底还可以相信谁呢？

说没事也是骗人的
白天要装得很坚强
夜里才可以放声大哭
哭完了才可以安心睡觉
难道这是我每一天的行程吗？
几个月前的开心  为什么不见了
曾经美好的日子  为什么回不去
是人变了吗？  还是那是在惩罚我？
不管多辛苦  不明白为什么还是舍不得

好恐怖  真的好恐怖
就这样不见了  真的就不见了吗？
再也找不回了吗？ 我的完美，再也找不回了……